Hot Mess Express and Friends with God Anyway

HotMessExpress

I might be the tiredest person in the world.   I swear my kids plot against me as to whose turn it is to jack with my sleep each night. With three kids and the messiest van in the neighborhood, I wonder if there will ever be a day when I’m not the hottest mess in the world.

I laughed at myself this morning as my kids ran to beat in the tardy bell….again. I’m such a good mom to allow them this opportunity to exercise before school. There is no telling what those ladies in the front office think of me. They are the sweetest ladies ever, though. Thank God for that.

With no make-up on and a toddler on my hip, I head to grocery store.

When Things Got Weird

There was a lady who was struggling to get her shopping cart situated.  I spent five seconds helping her return it back to the kiosk.  As I walked away, the thoughts spirit of fear, spirit of fear, spirit of fear came to my mind.  I thought to myself Huh… That lady must be afraid of something. I got into my car and it was still there…spirit of fear, spirit of fear, spirit of fear.  

I said out loud, “I mean….God, do you want me to do something about this?”

He gave me NO answer to that question.

When random thoughts or people pop into your head, it could be Holy Spirit telling you something.

I just kept hearing spirit of fear in my head.  It was a very “loud” thought.  I saw these people were parked next to me. With great hesitation, I got out the car and approached them. I kept thinking, I can’t believe I’m doing this…..

Praying for Strangers

“Excuse me, I know this is weird, but after I walked away from you, all I could hear was spirit of fear, spirit of fear, spirit of fear in my head.  I was wondering if there is anything I can pray for you for? (Meanwhile I’m freaking out in my head)

They quickly said, yes… please. Relief consumed me as I thought they don’t think I’m crazy. I prayed a very generic prayer.  It probably covered all things protection and peace n Jesus’ name.

After the Amen, I asked if they could relate to anything that I prayed.  She replied with, “Yes!” and shared that she has been really, really worried about something.

I have no idea how I knew what to say next. Out of NOWHERE, I said, “Remember that there is no fear in perfect love.  Fear comes from punishment and that is not from God.  You have a God that loves you perfectly and I pray you are able to receive that perfect love from Jesus in a way that will cast out all your fear. God loves you and he doesn’t want you afraid.

I then asked them if they knew Jesus like that, and they answered yes.  I asked them their names and told them I’d be praying for them the rest of the day.  They continued to thank me and I walked away.

What. In. The. World. Just. Happened!!  I couldn’t believe what just went down in the parking lot of a discount grocery store!

I had never even spoken to strangers about  Jesus, much less gotten out of my car, asked them personal questions, prayed in a public place, and busted out with scripture!!! I’ll tell you what happened.

That day, God used hot mess me to make a difference in the lives of these two strangers. My ideal self had arrived; except she looks differently than I had ever imagined.

I’d been trying to become this perfect Christian lady before doing anything cool for the kingdom of Heaven. That’s the kind of people God uses, right? Wrong. He uses hot messes.

This was an act of God’s love for me. He knew I’d go nuts over it… I have a passionate personality anyway.  Add that to the fact that God had used me…with a stranger.

The results of that equation are a life filled with excitement and a desire to do life closely with God.  God knows my heart and knew that it would change our relationship in a powerful way.

That day made me realize God wants to have fun with me. Embarrassing at first, but I felt like I had “hung out” with God or something.  It made me want to put myself in positions for Him to use me like that again and again and again.

This story occurred years ago, but it’s what began my friendship with God.

God desires friendship with you too. You don’t have to change or improve. You don’t have clean yourself up.

You are enough. Wake up. Give God your Yes and rock Y.O. U….Hot mess and all. Tweet that

You are enough.Wake up.Give God your Yesand Rock this day.

But do spend some time simply talking to your God like you would a friend. It’s an amazing beginning to a glory packed Christian life.

Praying for y’all!

xoxo-Lauren

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for Jesus and the cross. Thank you for desiring a relationship with us. Thank you for loving us enough to provide a way for communication. Help us to come to you first in all things through prayer. Help us not to hide. Jesus we need you and love you.

In your name I pray,

Amen

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How Motown led me to the Secret Place

God used Motown to lead me to the secret place.
It’s impossible for me to sit still and quiet before God…not anymore.

Y’all this morning my quiet time with the Holy, Supreme, God of the universe accidentally began with Motown.  And it. was. awesome. We are talking the Temptations, Jackson 5, Bobby Day, and Marvin Gay.

Lately, I’ve been getting up early (take that Proverbs 31 lady) to sit before the Lord, but I’m so dang tired it hasn’t been very fruitful.  It takes me forever to wake up. By the time I’m actually awake to pray, my mind goes everywhere and I’m anything but quiet before God…and then a kid wakes up or something.

A Motown Morning

Today was different in the most unexpected way. Most days, I obviously start my Jesus time with worship music.  I should note that this “set apart” time with God early is a new thing. It hasn’t been this formal…ever.

My Pandora station was on Motown. When it turned on I couldn’t help but dance!  I pictured God laughing at me as I sang “Aint no mountain high enough to keep me from getting to you” God and “Hold On…I’m coming!” and “How Sweet it is to be loved by you!”

Ya’ll… it was the most fun I’ve had while looking at 5:17 a.m. on the clock!! I was having a dance party before God.

The ridiculousness of it didn’t seem to fit for my “serious” time before God. But God meets us where we are! I’m a girl who LOVES to dance and that’s where He met me this morning. I mean…it’s Motown ya’ll!

Going Old School

I decided to keep it old school and googled the Tabernacle on my phone.  I thought about the Brazen Alter. I can’t help it… anytime I think of what went down on the Brazen Alter, I plug my nose at the thought of the STENCH!

BLECH!  It grosses me out thinking about the nastiness that occurred during the slaughter for sacrifices.

Can I just say, thank you Jesus for living in 2017- post cross!

But what does that stench remind me of? My Sin!!! It settled my spirit and allowed me to enter into authentic praise for Jesus and His work on the cross.

Next, I saw the picture of the Bronze Laver. It was a bowl priest used to wash themselves clean before entering the presence of God.  It settled my spirit even more as I praised God that I am already clean because of the word which He has spoken to me. (John 15:3)

Jesus says you are already clean.
You are already clean, run towards His presence.

I have been washed by the blood.  My sinful heart continues to become more like Christ as I continue to wash my heart with the word of God. (Ephesians 5:26)

I then pictured myself entering into the Holy Place. It’s a place even more precious as it contains golden furniture representing prayer and the presence of God.

It settled my spirit even more as I prayed and prayed and sent lots of prayers up to my God who hears me. My spirit became even more settled and still.

The Secret Place

The next step was into the Holy of Holies. This morning I was able to actually sit, quietly before my God.  I didn’t say a word. I just sat.

It’s literally impossible for me sit still and quiet. Not anymore.

God gave His people this tabernacle for a reason. Steps are taken before one enters into the Holy Place before God.

Hear me: Jesus is the only door you need.

You are literally on Holy Ground everywhere you go when Jesus lives in you. Tweet that.

But, there is something to say about prayerfully dying to self so our spirit can hear His voice.

My time in the quiet place didn’t last long. Kid 3 fell out of bed and a song bird kept chirping and annoying me. My quiet spirit was gone after that. But there’s always tomorrow!

I’ve never been more excited to wake up before dawn. Motown is my official wake up music from now on:)

Same ol’ Mistake

I was trying to be who I thought God wanted me to be before Him;serious, quiet, and still. That’s not me. He loves me dancing before Him!

My morning was a beautiful picture of a life that follows Jesus; he meets us where we are and draws us closer to Him.

He quiets my spirit.

He stills my soul.

I pray you ask Christ to meet you today. Ask Him to draw you closer to Him and wait in expectation.

Praying for y’all!

xoxo-Lauren

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thanks for wanting to spend time with us. Thank you for Jesus and your presence. Father, quiet our spirits so we can know and hear your voice. Bless our time with you regardless of how long it is.  Provide moments to draw us closer to you. Show us areas where we need to get rid of to make more time for you. Jesus, you are everything.  Make us hungry for you. In Jesus name I pray,

Amen.

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