God does not want me afraid of cancer. I tell myself that every time I am afraid of cancer. This AML junk is no joke on the fear factor scale. Nothing on Google has been encouraging and yes, I know…don’t ever Google… it just happened.
Thank God mom has doctors that are awesome and nurses that care, but this would all be a little bit easier to deal with if everything wasn’t. so. scary. So, I have to remind myself that God doesn’t want me afraid of cancer.
Mini Mission Trip
These aren’t just words that I read and can apply. The Lord has LITERALLY shown me he doesn’t want me afraid. He has been everywhere. The second day she received chemo, mom and I ended up praying with her chemo nurse and sharing with her what it means to have the joy of the Lord.
Mom was LITERALLY hooked up to chemo, being poisoned, and sharing the goodness of Christ…with me. It was awesome.
This was nothing other than the kindness of Christ to mom and me. First of all, God knows I love to talk and pray for strangers. Secondly, he knows Mom loves to hear her daughter talk and pray for strangers.
Forget flowers, God sent us the best “Feel Better” present ever! His gifts didn’t end there. A few days later we had a visitor come. This visit turned into another encounter where I was able to share what I have learned on how to love people with other world views.
It was amazing and all were blessed. Soon after that, mom ended up praying with another staff member and had the poor girl in tears because she was able to show the kindness of Christ.
I have more stories, but the point is God doesn’t want me afraid of cancer. How can I feel alone during this time when God has been so close? How can I be afraid for my mom when He reminds us so often that He loves us? We have literally been on a mini mission trip thus far.
Collect Stones and Remember
I’ve just finished a study on Joshua and it’s my new favorite book of the Bible. It might not be the most ladylike of all books, but this book is chalked full of goodness that reminds you of the faithfulness of God.
He is a God who fulfills His promises…even when you are scared.
I remembered all the times God has encouraged me to trust Him. I reminded myself that He loves my mom more than I do, and I rested in knowing that nothing surprises Him.
You read: Do not be afraid. Be strong. Be courageous. Be strong and very courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged multiple times in the first chapter.
This is because God knows we are going to be afraid. He knows we need to be reminded to Not be afraid. It is so easy to be scared when scary things are everywhere!
In Joshua 4, the people of God are crossing the Jordan River and pick up 12 stones (yes, it’s more than a bunch of churches in GA) to make a memorial. They have to make a memorial because God wants them to REMEMBER what God did for them.
Like the Israelites, we also need to make memorials because we are a forgetful bunch of people.
I am a forgetful person. I need memorials to remind me of who God is. I need memorials to cling to when I feel fear creeping in. I don’t need God to “show me a sign” because He already has.
God doesn’t want me afraid of cancer, and he doesn’t want you afraid either.
What are your memorials? Spend some time remembering what God has already done for you. When you are in a storm, it’s so easy to get lost in it. We NEED memorials!! It’s the memorials that bring us back to the fact that we serve a God who loves us perfectly and in Jesus, we have everything we need. The above stories are simply a few memorials that God has given me so that I don’t stay afraid during all of this.
I love that God never lets me stay down…or never lets me stay afraid long. He always finds a way to get my attention, to draw my attention back to Him so that I look at Him and not the problem. He is the solution. God is the deliverer.
Jesus is the only one that can calm the storms, heal cancer, and cause fear to leave. Tweet that.
God’s perfect love cast out all fear.
And just like in Joshua when He said it over and over again. God is willing to remind us over and over again. “Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified. Do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that all eyes who read this come to know the joy that comes from doing life closely with you. I pray you heal my mom. I pray you touch her and cancer is gone. I thank you for not letting us feel alone during this. I thank you for your kindness. I pray others come to know your faithfulness. I pray that you are glorified in this storm. I pray for all others who are going through difficult seasons. Help us to remember. Help us to remember that we don’t need new signs. Help us to remember what you have already done for us. I ask this in Jesus’ name, Amen.